Ask and You Shall Receive
I put the thought out...
I mentioned that I've recently been experimenting with finding and using my voice. In my volcano mouth declaration a few weeks ago I said that I was done being a victim of the past and I was ready to move on. Low and behold Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstein is now in my lap. A friend of mine had talked about it a few weeks ago and I had casually brushed it off, but for someone reason I now feel compelled to read it.
In just 2 days...
I'm only 2 chapters in but already I've been saying wow to myself. For so long I thought I was so weird and misplaced, I thought that I was the only person who was dealing with debilitating fear and anxiety. Gabby's story is really resonating with me and the reassurance I felt while reading has encouraged me to continue forward sharing my own story.
I can totally connect!
Like Gabby, my fears stem from my early childhood. Also like Gabby I experienced a moment of pure joy and ecstasy through meditation in my teens that I was unable to share but that gave me a light through my darkest moments. What really cemented the need to keep reading though was I read this: "Your hangups will melt away, resentments will release, and a childlike faith in joy will be reignited."
Your hangups will melt away, resentments will release, and a childlike faith in joy will be reignited.
As I've said before, I have been trying to reconnect to my inner child for awhile now, but I hope that my small step forward will put me onto the long journey of actually accomplishing that goal. I think the last time I experienced someone who "got me" so much was Jenny Lewis when I was 18.
Fear is a funny thing, it keeps you from doing the things you want to do most. I've given in to fear time and time again, but I hope I can learn to set it aside and see my inner truth.
"Fear is a funny thing, it keeps you from doing the things you want to do most." via @JustStayCurious
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Until next time, Gillian xx