29 years of learning
It’s that time of year again… my birthday! But this year, I don’t think that I can quantify everything I’ve learned in a list of 29 things.
The spaciousness I’ve gained…
The willingness to trust myself…
The motivation to follow a goal all the way through…
If I could give any advice to my 19 year old self I would tell her not to let life’s drama, all those little sequences that necessarily play out in any kind of relationship with other people, get in the way of doing what I want, get in the way of my dreams.
If I could tell my 23 year old self anything, I would tell her to read the books she wants and disregard her coworkers smug face when she chose a book from the self-help section. (The book was Mama Gena’s School of Womanly Arts, and I’m going to her new book release next month!!! So it all comes around.) I’d tell her that guy she was dating was bad news, but I don’t think she’d listen to me on that one.
If I could tell my 25 year old self anything, I would tell her that she was going down a dangerous and lonely road with her drinking. She was so lost because the expectations of the world didn’t fit her own vision of life, and she didn’t know how to deal with. I would have told her that drinking was not the answer. That instead of being overwhelmed, she should look at is as an opportunity for growth. I would have told her that the drinking she was doing to numb the pain was actually holding her back from a crazy, beautiful life.
The past 3 years have been all about trying to fix the mistakes I made when I was 25. Luckily, I learned them early and I’ve still got a whole lot of life ahead of me! Luckily, even while I was healing I got to do some pretty awesome things!
This year, my 29th year, my goals are to work on gratitude, trust, and connecting with my divine feminine. I will continue to work towards my goals with diligence.
I can’t believe this is my last year of my 20’s… or that when I was 16 I figured people this age were old :/